child - i'm frustrate.

ARGH!
Why did you bestow me with the patience, to wait for the right time, when there is no right time thing you have made for me .your theory is only for those who are already enjoying all the luxuries and assets.
Can’t you see me?? GOD…
Can’t you just see people around me??
Why am I not born in some TATA/BIRLA when my dreams are far big than all of them.
What so wrong that I have done in my past lives that I’m facing all these shits when I’m supposed to fly high in the sky with the velocity of my wishes and dreams.
I have just passed my graduation school but under the pressure of some hundred people who have already planned lots of things from the money I will earn.
Head of the family is expecting a transversal just after the completion of studies and planning to gift things to their loved ones and that also from the money I’ll earn.
Is for that reason have I given birth??
My childhood is spoiled with the taunts as I’m responsible for all the wrong things happened. Age when you can’t even spell pressure and burden correctly but you were carrying it with only one sentence in your head that I have to do it because dad has said this.
I have never been treated as a child but as a plant which will turn into a fruitful day someday.
Is for this reason, have I taken birth??
God! Just wanted to ask when you have already decided everything for me than why did you give the courage to fight with all these. I don’t understand why you want me to fight and struggle every single minute.
Is that you want me to die with all those limitless tries and with a last memory of a LOOSER. I just can’t fight anymore. What you just get out of giving me all these cuts every alternate day, why don’t you murder me in a single attempt. Why am I living such a bitter Life. Dude I’m not that strong to face your challenges anymore. I’m not that political even to get through all these easily.
I’m just tired of your so cold things called “part of life”. Leave me and focus some strong guy who knows all these politics. Murder me or leave me but I’m tired of these little pains every night.
Don’t I have right to fight for atleast one complete day without insecurity about my career and future.
My ancestor have lived a million dollar life but as I born you called all of them above with their million dollars and left a stony bed for me.
As I’m the biggest enemy of you, Is it??
Its been 22 years now, I also have the right to smile all the time and add hell a lot of joy to my life without this complex mesh of hopes and expectations around me.
There are millions of people in this world and you got me only to target. I’m just tired of taking all these challenges.